Don't Have Kids

"Don't have kids," she said. And I knew what she meant. While she dearly loved her children, the pain of watching them suffer was almost too much to bear. She described what looked to be our future in these coming days: cancer, sickness, death. "Why bring more people into this world to experience all this sadness?" was the unspoken question."

I pondered her words as I drove home and throughout the day struggled to pull my thoughts together. Why, when confronted with the "facts" would I continue to hope and dream of motherhood? I couldn't quite put my finger on it until a week or so later while conversing on a completely different topic. You see, my future, my hopes and dreams, aren't reliant upon my plans to do or not to do. They're not just some big question mark of unknownness. I know who holds my future in His hands, and I know I can trust Him.

I've lived the experience for the past twenty-something even years. The tears of broken dreams as well as the bliss of new ones that surpassed anything I could have imagined. I am confident. I am secure. I have hope for the future because the Creator of the world, the Inventor of time, the Savior of my soul, Jesus...well, He's taking care of me.

But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. -2 Corinthians 2:14

And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. -Philippians 2:6

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