A goal of my blog that I've seemed to lose sight of is to keep a journal of sorts of my life. The ups and downs of running a business, trips and new experiences, and of course showing off my amazing clients.
But it's also about being real about who I am and what I truly value and love most. I never was a diary kind of girl and gave up scrapbooking long ago, so this is really the only record keeper I have to look back on. So for the sake of posterity, I want to do a better job of capturing these memories--in words and in pictures.
Friday night I did one of the scariest things of my life. Ok, that might seem like an exaggeration...but for those who haven't known me long, I'm actually very shy. Coming to realize that shyness for me was really based on pride (what will people think of me??) and fear of man (what will people think of me??), it's something I've worked on over the years.
So going to a public event to walk up to strangers and speak to them unsolicited--kinda intimidating! And it wasn't like I hadn't done things similar to this, but it was different enough to make the butterflies in my stomach dance like they were caught up in a winter storm.
I told my mom that day that it really wasn't something I wanted to do, but needed to do. What's the use of believing something if you don't share it? And after reading about the horrific shooting in Connecticut, I was even more convinced I had to go.
So I layered up, packed my purse, grabbed some hand warmers, and left to pick up my sister. There's no backing out when someone else is involved!
We walked up to the Del Oro Theatre to meet the rest of the group, prayed, and separated into smaller groups. Game on. And while the nervousness never fully left, it was the most exhilarating experience of my life! There were times I was tempted to just hand out the info and leave, but the conviction to stop and actually have a conversation wouldn't let me go.
I met so many young people who had never realized the seriousness that their actions had on their eternal destiny. And what Jesus had done to offer them complete forgiveness and salvation!
Christmas is so much more than shopping, presents, and food. It's the celebration of God becoming man so that He could make the ultimate sacrifice as the once for all payment for our sin!
On the way home, I just felt like a water fountain bubbling over with joy. It's a lesson that God has been teaching me over and over again: He rewards obedience! Sure, it was hard and not everyone always wanted to listen. I had to deal with rejection, funny looks, and people suddenly becoming deaf when I tried to speak to them. But He is always faithful--to strengthen, to lift up, to embolden, to give the right words.
Honestly, I don't know if it will ever be easy, but I want this to be a memorial of sorts to myself. In times of doubt and temptation, I can look back at this moment and remember. It's all part of the journey of life and one more step towards my life's goal: to glorify my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, in all I do!
2 comments:
way to go, lydia! it's encouraging to hear that there are others out there who struggle with boldness when sharing their faith...and even more, that Christ can overcome it. =)
Thank you for sharing that, Lydia.
I have done similar in the past and agree--it is both scary and so exciting to actually share.
God has worked in my life, and I want to share that with others too.
I miss you!
Love, Angela
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